|rhapsodies of the life of Glen Abraham Liang|

The Lord Jesus blesses Glen with Thursday, August 25, 2005

Confessing, ranting, learning, and clarifying

okay.
actually there're really TONNES of stuff i wanna blog abt.

but there's one i feel very strongly tt i shd address.
n it had been bothering me this week.

well it's been quite a lousy week.
i guess it's bcos i've been trying to sleep late at night.
trying to accomplish more work in a day.
so my next day was always w/o much energy in school.
but something aggravated the situation.

Confessing

i have no armpit hair.
or rather, not yet.

it's not very easy for me to say this here, ok.
but i just felt prompted to do so.
not many ppl knew abt this.
only my family noes, to be exact.
not until my classmate noticed it when i was changing for PE.
then the whole class noes abt it.
n now everyone who reads this oso noes abt it.
but nvm abt tt.

Ranting

so a grp of classmates decided to be funny.

"hey glen, can u stop shaving ur armpit hair?"
"yo shaver!"
"so did u pluck ur armpit hair last night?"
"or u waxed it?"
one joker even acted out 'how i shaved my armpit hair at home'.

this has been goin' on for months.
initially i didn't mind at all!
cos i found it funny too.
n i thk God for it.
cos i didn't n don't wanna be like those who can't take jokes.

so whenever i got teased, i remained calm n normal.
even tho everything they said is not true at all.
i didn't mind being the joke of the class, really.

until ytd when i suddenly felt i was being made a fool.
i dunno why.
i didn't want to feel tt way.
but somehow i got tt feeling.

at tt moment, i felt as if i had no friends.
even my 'best buddy' joined the rest in teasing me.
i was so upset!

"he was the one who called me his 'best buddy'."

tt WAS wat i thought to myself.

i cudn't take it anymore.
i took an eraser n aimed it at one of my teasers.
but i missed.
some of u must be laughing at me now:
"an eraser? tt's so harmless!"
"n u missed?"

well i thk God it was only an eraser.
cos there was a stapler on my table.
n there cud have been bloodshed if i wanted to.
(i was a violent kid b4 i became a christian.
i hit a sch mate's back w/ a twig in P1.
n was sent to my DM for questioning)

but i kinda knew my limits.
so i chose the eraser 'stupidly'.
n i oso thk God i missed the shot.

my mood was adversely dampened for the rest of the day.

Learning

hmmm.
when i reached home, i began to reflect.
i realised something impt.
i think it was God who put this thought in my head:
"now u experience the feeling ur other classmates felt.
when they were victims of ur teases."

ahhh.
"why shd i blame my teasers?
moreover, i was able to manage their teases b4."
i tot to myself.

i felt so much better aft tt convo w/ myself.
praise God!
i almost sank deeper into satan's trap of hating my teasers.
but now i understand my circumstances fully.
n i don't take their actions n words to heart.

moral of the story:
if u don't wanna get teased, don't tease others.
if u wanna tease others, don't feel sad when u get teased.

Clarifying

having no armpit hair DOESN'T mean it's been shaved/plucked/waxed.

there are actually some others who oso don't have armpit hair.
n i refer to guys, males, teenage boys.
n we don't deliberately remove them.
we just don't grow them.
in other words, God didn't plant them there.
so i'm not the only one!

n wat's wrong w/ having no armpit hair?
i always tell myself:
Boys may be puking when they see me w/o armpit hair.
but gals will be full of envy n jealousy of me!
(esp those who have armpit hair.
like some of my female teachers.)
my classmates will noe who the disgusting ones are.

just to spice things up, i shall relate to u an appetite-losing experience of mine.

it was once of the many times i dozed off in class.

my head was on my table.
(i was sitting in the front row.
teacher was using the OHP)
then i heard her shouting at my classmates to shut up.
i was curious so i turned my head n opened my blurry eyes.
...
yup u noe wat i saw.
watever u call tt, a blackforest or ...
immediately i lifted my head n said to myself:
"wat a revelation!"

then i began to pay attention for the rest of the lesson.

no, tt's not true.
i was distracted by the thought of the blackforest.

ok my pt is this.

having no armpit hair IS NOT a sin!

so pls pls never condemn or despise me.

phew!
wat a beautiful ending for an embarassing confession, isn't it?
thk God for the tremendous courage for this entry.

back to preparing for Prelim 2...

Glen dunked at 8/25/2005 5:02:17 pm

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The Lord Jesus blesses Glen with Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Is it the end of the world yet?

don't worry.
this ain't gonna be another long n boring entry.
maybe still boring.
i dunno.
haha.

just wanna announce my prelim results.
i'm not proud to do this actually.
but i wanna let ppl noe something.
tt i'm not as good as some think i am.
so don't expect too much frm me.
n i'm oso not as bad as others think i am.
so don't underestimate me too far.

in response to my title, it's a NO!
in a sense, it's really not the end yet.
i'm referring to the Biblical meaning.
it's not the end of the world yet.
maybe not yet.
but soon.

my real intention of blogging this is not abt tt actually.
it's abt my prelims.

English - C5
Higher Chinese - B3

E Maths - C5
A Maths - C6

Physics - B4
Chemistry - F9

History - B4
Social Studies - (didn't note it down)
Geog Elective - E8

Chinese - A1

L1R5: 25

Don't swell with superiority;
There are others better than you.

Don't whine with inferiority;
There are others worse than you.

so where on earth am i going for 1st 3 mths next yr?
well.
i'm still holding on to 2 thin ropes of hope.

1. Moderation to 20
w/ bonus points, i might get into SR or CJ.
2. 2nd wave of prelims
ah, then i can redeem myself n get into SAJC!

haha.
yup tt's all.
aft all these, i thk God i'm still alive.
cos i choose to fight on n finish the race.
instead of being a weakling n choose otherwise.
u get wat i mean?

My future is mine to make, and it's in God's hands!

therefore it's not the end of the world yet, for me.
have i hit L5, sir?

Glen dunked at 8/17/2005 3:45:56 pm

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The Lord Jesus blesses Glen with Thursday, August 11, 2005

You tell me what I should do

argh.
din expect myself to come back to blog so soon.
but i need some advice on this.

my dad's been pressurising me to sacrifice areas in my life.
indirectly.
mainly church.
tt was why i skipped church recently.
esp teens' time on sat.
it's really difficult.
cos i feel very lonely when i'm not in church.
my friends in church make my day every weekend.
moreover, church is the House of God!
it's where i get closest to God.
tho we're taught tt we can draw near to Him even outside church.
thru our Quiet Time sessions, etc.

well, the main crux of this post is this:

i signed up for mission trip this yr.
main reason ain't bcos i recvd a calling frm God.

i'm sorry, but the main reason is i enjoyed the trip last yr.
n i wanna go back there again this yr.
this is wrong, isn't it?

hai.
coming tues is our 1st mission training.
it's in the evening, as usual.
BUT shd i go onot?
my dad wud of cos say nth to object even if i go for it.
he might only add some pressure on me.
it simply means this.
IF i get bad results for my O's, he'll 'remind' me of this commitment i make.
n other things like going to church EVERY week, etc.

but Jesus tells me something in contrast.
Seek ye first the kingdom of God,
and His righteousness;
and all these things shall be added unto you.
- Matthew 6:33

now, the prob is this.
my dad, who is a pre-believer, doesn't believe in this at all!
n this makes it hard for me to trust in the Lord.

if i do not trust in God, i'm sinning.
if i doubt in God, i'm sinning!

for Romans 14:23 tells me:
The man who has doubts is condemned if he eats,
because his eating is not from faith;
and everything that does not come from faith is sin.

so now, pls tell me wat to do.
try not to tag ur advice here.
cos i won't be so free like now to come online, i suppose.

i will be very grateful if you could advise me via sms.
my number is 98302648.
but pls don't let anyone else noe ok?

haha.
don't worry.

i'm prepared for anything since i've posted my number on the net.
i'll still give thks to God.
no matter wat happens due to the revealing of my no. here.
for it is the will of God concerning me in Christ Jesus.

continue to pray for me.
tt there will be a 2nd prelim.
for me to redeem myself.
tho hopes ain't high.

just got back E maths paper one today.
44/80.
i was picturing a distinction for E maths lor.
i tot it was my only A for this prelim.
seems like it's no more.
i'm sure it's no more!
E maths shd be Easy maths la.
i'm so upset!

tt's why i need a 2nd prelim for redemption.
cos i din prepare earlier enough for the 1st one.
this is shit.

really.
it means no SAJC for 1st three mths next yr.
can u imagine how sad i'm now?
it reached the stage of melancholy.
nah tt's exaggeration.
but i'm really upset.

so pls pls call down the power of God for me.
tt He may grant me a miracle.
either a GREAT moderation for me to enter SAJC.
which is quite impossible.
or a 2nd prelim for me to redeem myself.
which is oso a little impossible.
but i choose to believe in miracles.

thks in advance.
may God bless you n keep you.
amen.

Glen dunked at 8/11/2005 3:53:20 pm

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The Lord Jesus blesses Glen with Monday, August 08, 2005

Time is sprinting out!

i can't believe this.
i just spent nearly 2 hrs going down my list of great blogs.
argh.

i need to master speed-reading!

doubt i'll come back for blog reading nor blogging anytime soon.
it just takes up too much time!
forgive me.

Glen dunked at 8/8/2005 8:45:12 am

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Lost

i've got alot of inspirations to blog.
but i seem to have lost the passion for it.

well i'm sure i'll find it, soon.

meanwhile, i'll change my hobby.
frm blogging to reading blogs.

even so, i might not have time to read blogs often.
hai.

Glen dunked at 8/8/2005 7:20:18 am

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The Lord Jesus blesses Glen with Friday, August 05, 2005

Festival of Praise 2005!

Glen dunked at 8/5/2005 9:00:01 am

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The Lord Jesus blesses Glen with Thursday, July 28, 2005

Jan - Mar 2006: SAJC or McDonald's?

argh.
in the midst of my prelims.

today no paper so having a break.

these exams determine my whereabouts for 1st 3 mths next yr.
most likely.
unless there's a 2nd wave of prelims.
which i'm praying for fervently.
cos i need a 2nd chance to redeem myself!

don't wanna talk much abt the papers so far.
thk God He saw me thru.
some good, some bad.
but i'm still alive, so praise God man.
haha.

well.

where am i going frm Jan - Mar 2006?
wat am i doing frm Jan - Mar 2006?

somewhere meaningful?
a relatively-good JC like SAJC?

something meaningless?

working in Mac's?

my final destination must be SAJC.
but i oso wanna get into SAJC right frm the start!

yup tt's all.

to all my dear friends who are not having prelims now:
please pray for me!
thank you.

Glen dunked at 7/28/2005 1:53:45 pm

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